Lainey’s

its so weird to go back to studying after a year of working. i don't know. things are starting to pick up pace, and i'm trying to catch on, trying to get my rhythm/mojo back.

there are so much reading to do, and i have 3 presentations this semester. i'm so nervous about it tho, coz of my stupid malaysian accent. my classes are all white. except for like.. me, and 2 other sporean girls. they are... i dunno what to say about them, but they both keep to themselves a lot. coz i am malaysian. so i'm worried if the lecturer/classmates don't know what the fuck am i going on about. i usually never have any problem presenting. not sure about this time tho. PLUS aiyoh, i'm constantly zoning out during lectures. go in, sit, stone. class over.

:( very bad. i don't absorb one single thing from class.

its not easy making friends here. i'm glad i get along pretty well with my housemates. i wish i stayed on campus tho. it would be way easier to meet people. haha. oh well. meet guys ah-hem HAHAHAHA.

need to get a part time job soon, as soon as i'm comfortable with being here. but apparently, its difficult getting a job because i'm asian. they are not used to having asians here. really. the only asians i see so far are in uni. everywhere i go, city, clubbing, drinking, dinner, shopping mall... hardly any asians.

sigh.

such is the story of my life right now.

i miss home LOTS!

drinking, dancing and mabuking...

roses... received from the club. HAHA!

i wanna mabuk mabuk mabuk, like how we always do ...

i don't fucking care.
i won't feel bad.

if you're not gonna tell people you flirt with that you're attached,
i'm gonna do the same.

i'm going as wild as you can possibly imagine.
and its not difficult for me to do it here.

in fact,
its pretty easy.

AND I AM GOING TO KRABI, THAILAND.

HOHOHOHOHOH. I AM EXCITED THANKS.

PAD THAI, MASSAGES, EURO HOTTIES, BEACH, SAND SEA AND FUN HERE COMES ELAINE!!!

i am very possessive.

especially of the people that i love.

that is all. thanks.

where should i go from here?

who do i talk to?

what should i do?

when is it gonna be over?

how should i feel?

... fucking hurt. fucking fucked up.

:) oh yes i am.

the birthday weekend was very eventful. which includes new year's eve, new year's day, birthday eve, birthday. then the weekend. i am of mixed emotions right now.

i wanted to spend my birthday in bed. for so many reasons.

but thanks for spending time with me <3. you guys know you who you are. i love the chicken nuggets, the french toasts, the coffee, the cake. i love the gifts. i love helium :)

i love the people who spent my birthday with me, and who took care of me. who laughed at me and took videos of me wtf. i have so many bruises on my legs. i have no idea how i got them.

meanwhile, i need to take a break from partying. december was really, a bit too much of alcohol. oh yeah, and i need a bit of sleep. actually, i need quite a lot of sleep and recovery.

i am so stoned. and stoned.

la!

chuakokkian, stacywong and amandaoei almost masuk penjara last night.

HAHAHAHAHA!

my company just announced that its company day (worldwide) on my birthday!

so i get a holiday! :D

.... quite nice. i feel honored wtf.

turning old is not something nice to celebrate tho.

i used to look forward to birthdays....

... but not anymore, coz i'm turning quite old..

SIGH!

hoho.

party on wed, thu, fri and sat night!

each night also got a reason! :D

.... i feel quite sad.